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Javlin · #1 Postby **Javlin** » Sun Oct 30, 2005 11:36 pm

The last week has been different both emotionally and mentally for me.It seems like the last nine weeks has finally started to catch up with me.I think I had those masked over feelings just look ahead to the job at hand.Now I am starting to realize with the story the other nite The Waveland Cafe is already running short of supplies.The devastation I thought like maybe with Ivan in FL might be barely noticable in a year.Boy was I hoping on some wild dream it's going to be maybe 3-4years at least.We got reamed bad.It's funny and Sad I am already having problems remembering pre-Katrina.Now everything memories and all start at post-Katrina because that is all we have left,The past IS GONE it was taken from us and I actually feel guilty some for having a job and a home.People are steadily bailing out some it's just to much depression.Life is definitly flat right now.I know that I will make it eventually but buddy it fricken sucks.Anyone else feeling it?

Deb321 · #2 Postby **Deb321** » Tue Nov 01, 2005 1:57 am

Javlin wrote:The last week has been different both emotionally and mentally for me.It seems like the last nine weeks has finally started to catch up with me.I think I had those masked over feelings just look ahead to the job at hand.Now I am starting to realize with the story the other nite The Waveland Cafe is already running short of supplies.The devastation I thought like maybe with Ivan in FL might be barely noticable in a year.Boy was I hoping on some wild dream it's going to be maybe 3-4years at least.We got reamed bad.It's funny and Sad I am already having problems remembering pre-Katrina.Now everything memories and all start at post-Katrina because that is all we have left,The past IS GONE it was taken from us and I actually feel guilty some for having a job and a home.People are steadily bailing out some it's just to much depression.Life is definitly flat right now.I know that I will make it eventually but buddy it fricken sucks.Anyone else feeling it?

Sorry for what you are going through Javlin. I know after getting hit by 2 canes in 3weeks last year I think I was numb for weeks after. I don't know it's like you just float around and try to put the pieces of your life back together. It will take time and I wish you the best. Try to keep your chin up!! Hopefully things will improve soon .

Javlin · #3 Postby **Javlin** » Tue Nov 01, 2005 11:47 am

Thanks Deb my wife this morning said maybe i need to see someone so I am.The way to much R&R(remove&rebuild) I have been getting lately is whats eating me partly along with other things.

breeze · #4 Postby **breeze** » Tue Nov 01, 2005 9:03 pm

Javlin, I don't live on the Coast. I have never endured a
hurricane. But, I am a nurse - for the past 20-ish years.
When your life has been rearranged so drastically, yes -
you do need to see someone - if only, talk about it.
Make an appointment, keep it, and, just go TALK...
...blabber...spit it out. Get it off your chest. Even if it
sounds like nothing to you, it's something to someone.
Always remember that, buddy.

Javlin · #5 Postby **Javlin** » Tue Nov 01, 2005 11:58 pm

I will Breeze but I ACTUALLY got in some real R @ R today it was a no work day for sure.I got to throw some 300rds down range for the first time in 3 months.And to boot some guys at the rifle range(one was a MHP officer) said same nice shooting and a REALLY nice rifle.She's rare.Tension was melting.THKS for the kind words guys I really appreciate it.

Deb321 · #6 Postby **Deb321** » Wed Nov 02, 2005 1:39 am

Javlin wrote:Thanks Deb my wife this morning said maybe i need to see someone so I am.The way to much R&R(remove&rebuild) I have been getting lately is whats eating me partly along with other things.

Good idea Javlin, it will help to get things off your chest. Also it is good to just step away from all the mess and do something you enjoy. At least for a little while you can forget about all the chaos. I am also struggling with stress although I know it is nothing compared to what you have gone through. Trying to sell my house so I can relocate with my husband and I get hit by another cane *(Wilma) so now I have more damage to deal with so house is on hold. Anyway hang in there and my thoughts are with you and you family.

#7 Postby **MGC** » Wed Nov 02, 2005 8:20 pm

Javlin, hang it there the coast will be back and better. Maybee you need to take a weekend getaway to somewhere nice. I bet your wife would like to get out too. We just got back from Florida for a few days. It does you well to get away from the destruction and see normal again.....MGC

Javlin · #8 Postby **Javlin** » Wed Nov 02, 2005 10:19 pm

Yea MGC we usually go to Birmingham for THKS Giving at my sisters.That looks to be off this year you know the lack of help and all and me in management.I have been back at work since 09/04.I am going with a buddy of mine next Thursday on a boat ride with the sheriff's department maybe the islands they have been recovering caskets and such and maybe some bayous.He said Fort Mass. did just fine nothing else is left though.He said they just did 8 hrs of documentry of him and the dive team yesterday.Should be cool as long as we do not fish any thing out if you know what I mean.So some more R@R.I asked him you getting tired yet he said know still to much adrenline going.He was telling me a couple weeks ago they where in the GPT Harbour walking in 2'-3' of silt then you hit a drop off down you go.He had just walked off another 18 wheeler.He said if the divers were not tethered to each other they could almost get lost in the 3' vis.Next Thursday will be some excitement cause as you know not much to do.

sunny · #9 Postby **sunny** » Thu Nov 03, 2005 9:15 am

Hey Javlin. It's been a rough road, hasn't it? Yes I am feeling it, too. It seems like Katrina has ripped everything in my life apart. Sometimes I have a very hard time holding on.

Javlin · #10 Postby **Javlin** » Thu Nov 03, 2005 7:24 pm

Yea Sunny when you start getting that extra time veen if it is just a little bit you start thinking"We just got reaemed bad".

Javlin · #11 Postby **Javlin** » Fri Nov 11, 2005 9:08 am

Man I went through The Point in Biloxi yesterday just unbelievable.Once I got beyond the 2nd Judicial Courthouse on Howard Ave. it look like a bomb had gone off.An area maybe 6-7 blocks wide and 7-8 blocks deep not a single fricken house was standing.The destruction of The Point was maybe 60-80%.Yea Sunny I am on an anti-depressant myself now.I was getting terrible(still am)headaches on one side of the head like clockwork twice a day.Seems to lessened the intensity some along with some migraine meds.You know you can't take off work because there is not enough help.I am really thinking there is hardly going to be a holidays this year.Just work and more work it's a long road we are about to travel on.

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